Soundtrack for tonight

THAT SHOULD BE ME - JUSTIN BIEBER

Everybody's laughing in my mind
Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy

Do you do what you did, what you did with me?
Does he love you the way I can?
Did you forget all the plans that you made with me?
'Cause baby, I didn't

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me, this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me

That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong, I can't go on
'Til you believe that that should be me
That should be me

You said you needed a little time for my mistakes
It's funny how you use that time to have me replaced
Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies?
Whatcha doing to me?

You're taken' him where we used to go
Now if you're trying to break my heart
It's working 'cause you know

That, that should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me, this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me

That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong, I can't go on
'Til you believe that should be me

I need to know should I fight for our love or disown?
It's getting harder to shield this pain in my heart, ooh

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me, this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me

That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong, I can't go on
'Til you believe that that should be me, ooh

Holding your hand, that should be me
The one making you laugh, oh baby
Oh, that should be me, yeah

That should be me, giving you flowers
That should be me, talking for hours
That should be me, that should be me
That should be me

Never should've let you go
I never should've let you go
That should be me
Never should've let you go
That should be me

Never should've let you go
Never should've let you go
That should be me


STAY - MILEY CYRUS

Well it's good to hear your voice
I hope your doing fine
And if you ever wonder,
I'm lonely here tonight
Lost here in this moment and time keeps slipping by
And if I could have just one wish
I'd have you by my side

Oooh, oh I miss you
Oooh, oh I need you

And I love you more than I did before
And if today I don't see your face
Nothing's changed, no one can take your place
It gets harder everyday

Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry it's this way
But I'm coming home, I'll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay

Well I try to live without you
The tears fall from my eyes
I'm alone and I feel empty
God I'm torn apart inside

I look up at the stars
Hoping your doing the same
Somehow I feel closer and I can hear you say

Oooh, oh I miss you
Oooh, oh I need you

And I love you more than I did before
And if today I don't see your face
Nothing's changed, no one can take your place
It gets harder everyday

Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry that it's this way
But I'm coming home, I'll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay
Always stay

I never wanna lose you
And if I had to I would choose you
So stay, please always stay
You're the one that I hold onto
'Cause my heart would stop without you

And I love you more than I did before
And if today I don't see your face
Nothing's changed no one can take your place
It gets harder everyday

Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry that it's this way
But I'm coming home, I'll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay
I'll always stay

And I love you more than I did before
And I'm sorry that it's this way
But I'm coming home I'll be coming home
And if you ask I will stay, I will stay
I will stay

heart burst into fire -_-

Kali ini bukan kegalauan yg mendorong saya untuk menulis postingan ini, bukan juga emosi yg menggebu dan membuat saya tertarik untuk menumpahkannya disini, tapi yg membuat saya tertarik untuk mengungkapkannya disini adalah karena lagunya Bullet for My Valentine-Heart Burst Into Fire hahahaha -_- (btw ini lagu mantan saya loh skrg berlaku ya buat saya zzz). Sebait lagu itu kayanya pas deh buat aku
When i see your face my heart burst into fire

Hahahaha konyol ya? -_- engga juga sih soalnya ini bukan hal yg konyol, tapi ini hal yg realistis (lebe). Ini berhubungan erat dengan sifatku. Sebenernya punya sifat gini ga enak banget sumpah. Mau ngurangin atau mau ngilanginnya susaaaah banget. Malah ini jadi merugikan seseorang-yang-tidak-seharusnya-dirugikan. Yaa dan aku berharap orang2 yg aku libatkan disini ga baca ya ahahaha
Hmm, beberapa hari yg lalu, entahlah tanggal berapa. Oiya! 29 november -,- saat itu terjadi perang yg cukup sengit antara aku dan dia. Disini ga bakal aku sebutin siapa si dia itu karena kalo kalian termasuk dalam golongan orang yg punya IQ tinggi pasti ngerti huahaha. Gilanya, pertengkaran hebat itu disebabkan karena hal yg sepele sih bagi dia tapi bagi aku ngga sepele. Ah males juga sih ya aku ngebahas masalahnya disini. Intinya itu karena someone between us lah. Yg bahkan orang2 yg ga gitu deket sama aku tapi tau tentang KAMI, tau apa yg keliatan ngganjel dari kami. YANG BIKIN NYESEKNYA LAGI, komentar mereka ke aku tiap mereka liat keganjalan itu. Nusuk nancep rasanya kaya kepelanting keras ke tanah abis terbang dari langit ke 7. kebayang sakitnya? Haha ga usah dibayangin. Aku sebenernya udah cukup lama sih mendemnya. Cuman aku memikirkan posisi mereka lah. Kalo aku begini nanti jadi begini. Tp kalo aku ga begitu nanti jadinya begitu. Ah pokonya udah sering lah masalah ini mengganggu pikiran -,-
Kembali pada lagu, nah apa hubungannya lagu itu dengan yg aku rasain? When i see HER face, my heart burst into fire. Coba cerna lah kata2 itu maksudnya apaan. Yaa tidak lain dan tidak bukan it was kind of jealous. I really hate this feeling because actually I don’t like if my boyf (ex : my ex) is jealous with me and my boy friend(school mate). Makanya kalo aku suka ngerasain cemburu gitu ya aku mikirnya ga enak jadi orang yg di cemburuin dan mesti ini itu biar akunya ga cemburu lagi. Iya tau itu egois emang, trus mau gimana lagi orang emang akunya begini? Hahaha nasiplah.
Intinya aku ga suka, itu aja -_- walaupun dia udah bilang kalo temen ya selamanya bakalan tetep jadi temen, tapi bukan itu yg aku permasalahin! Ngga enak tau kalo posisinya di aku. Kalian mah ga berasa orang kalian juga kan yg jadi tersangka. Istilahnya begitulah kalian tersangka, aku korbannya dan temen2ku saksinya. Sampe sekarang pun kalian masih begitu! jujur ya aku bener2...ahh I’M SICK OF THAT -_- itu sebenernya ripping my heart into pieces and killing me slowly. Ghhhh gabisa ngebayangin gimana nanti aku udah gabisa melihat secara langsung kebiasaan kalian itu. Sikok si HER ini kau cak dak katek duso itu ishhh -_______________- ai sudalah banyaki duso bae ngomongi dio disini. Dengerlah lagu heart burst into fire untuk kau tu HER. Terserah kamu lah ye sekarang. Sebentar lagi aku akan mendapat secercah kebahagiaan karena udah ga akan liat kalian begitu lagi tiap hari :) hahaha jgndksnengbaeyebetino (jahat nian mulut aku sumpahlah). Sorry kalo kau baco, lah aku omongi, katek yg nak jadi listeners aku kalo cerito cak inian. Nyampah bae aku cerito cak ini. Daripada masalahnyo berkembang lagi kalo aku nulis di twitter, enak aku tulis sini bae ye jadi dak usalah lagi nyalahi aku karena aku tulis disini. Karena kalo kau masih nyalahi aku dengan bawa2 namo kau disini, aku dak beraso salah apo2 karna aku sudah milih media paling sedikit pembaca dan kemungkinan dak bakal tebaco. Dak usah marah jugo karna aku ngangkat topik ini lagi.
Analoginya tu... kalo udah luka, entah karena apa itu, walaupun ditutup, dan luka itu udah lamaaa terbentuknya, bekasnya ga akan pernah ilang dan sewaktu2 bisa dapet lagi luka serupa di tempat yg ga sama. Kita liat saja. Aku dak ngajak tanding, aku dak ngajak taruhan, aku cuman ngajak kau ngeliat apo yg bakal terjadi agek. Sebelum dan sesudah. I believe, in the end, no one win or lose. But as time goes by, we can see who was true, and who was false :)